1. |
Bare Skin
02:03
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Cover my face up with shame in makeup
The way I look is not enough
Right when I wake up
I gotta earn my right to become human
Put some lipstick on real quick, and keep right on moving
Cause bare skin and bitter thoughts are never in
But it makes no sense to just pretend
That I am okay, okay I feel happy this way
I will get better, just not today
Because today I’m way too tired
To keep on trying
In just a moment I’ll be laying on my bed
To go to sleep instead
Bare skin and bitter thoughts are never in
But it makes no sense to just pretend
That I am okay, okay I feel happy this way
I will get better, just not today
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2. |
You Only
01:59
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I have nothing else to do
I'll make it up I could take a nap too
Boredom makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
You said you had time for me
I'm always making time for you
But you forget about me
And it make me feel real lonely
I miss you
You forget about me
Who am I to feel like anybody
When I struggle just to be somebody
I have just so much to do
Or I could just sleep it through
Life makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
I want to be somebody
You won't forget so easily
I want to say I love you
But you wont care about it
I could put myself out there
But I have a feeling ill regret it
And still I miss you
You forget about me
Who am I to feel like anybody
When I struggle just to be somebody
Life makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
I want to be somebody
You won't forget so easily
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3. |
Bleeding Heart
03:02
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My brain is slush
My words do not mean much
When we are close
And our bodies touch
I feel alive
My knees get weak
When I speak my words get all jumbled
When you are near
It feels so clear I want to live
So call a doctor
Tell them of my bleeding heart
If it keeps bleeding I might fall apart
And please just hold me tight
I'm trying with all my might
To keep on breathing and just be alright
My heart beats loud
My tears make me proud
When I cry it just means
I'm more alive
My pain feels grand
Sometimes I fail to understand
Why my heart keeps on beating
And I still live
So call a doctor
Tell them of my bleeding heart
If it keeps bleeding I might fall apart
And please just hold me tight
I'm trying with all my might
To keep on breathing and just be alright
So call a doctor
Tell them of my bleeding heart
If it keeps bleeding I might fall apart
And please just hold me tight
I'm trying with all my might
To keep on breathing and just be alright
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4. |
Art Hoe
02:06
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Is it art when I'm slipping through the cracks
Of every fresco on every wall ?
Is it music when I'm consumed into the void
Of every silence of every song ?
Is it dance when I'm shaking on the floor
To the beat of your fist beating on memories door?
Is it art if I suffer?
Is it art if I die?
Is it art if my pain
Is unbearably high?
Is it art if I suffer?
Is it art if I die?
Is it art if my pain
Is unbearably high?
You said I'm pretty when I cry
I hid under all these lies all so expertly devised
Seeing through these vacant eyes the one way to my demise
I perform my given role
just a puppet nothing more
Was your fool for way too long
But you strings are gone
Was it art when I suffered?
Was it when I died?
Was it art when my pain
Was unbearably high?
Was it art when I suffered?
Was it when I died?
Was it art when my pain
Was unbearably high?
You said I'm pretty when I cry
You said I'm pretty when I cry
You said I'm pretty when I cry
When I cry
But it is art...?
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5. |
Learning
02:42
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Supposedly
We learn from hard times
The pieces of a broken heart are stronger
Allegedly
We're meant to grow
And gather strength
From our failures
Sometimes it’s hard to learn
And it takes time to make it through
And I still don’t know what I was
Supposed to learn from you
I feel like
I’m still 19
I’m still confused
I’m stuck in pain
I still feel
So used by you
I still
Haven't learned to forgive
I still
Haven’t learned to forget
I still
Haven’t learned how to heal
I’m a fool
I’ll never learn
So I still don’t know
What I was
Supposed to learn from you
I’m just a fool from some things I'll never learn
I still don’t know
What I was
Supposed to learn from you
I’m just a fool from some things I never learn
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6. |
Closer
03:56
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Absent
Body heat
Inside my heart cold
Blood river flowing slowly
Limber limbs
Shivering
Lost, lacking
The gentle warmth you keep from me
How I wanted to hold you,
Yet I felt so far away
The space between you and I
Unbearably endless all the time
How I wanted to hold you
And stop missing you like this
Hold your gaze with my own gaze
Darling, and love your body my dear
Soft voice, tongue tied
How I long
For your touch
Soft voice, speak wise
Be brave my
Young weak heart
How I wanted to hold you
Yet I felt so far away
The space between you and I
Unbearably endless all the time
How I wanted to hold you
And stop missing you like this
Hold your gaze with my own gaze
Darling, and Love your body my dear
So come take up some space
On my side of the bed
I am freezing cold,
So please stay close
I'm out here whispering
I doubt that you can hear me from so far away
Baby please let me stay
How I wanted to hold you
Yet I felt so far away
The space between you and I
Unbearably endless all the time
How I wanted to hold you
And stop missing you like this
Hold your gaze with my own gaze
Darling, and Love your body my dear
Soft voice, tongue tied
How I long
For your touch
Soft voice, speak wise
Be brave my
Young weak heart!
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7. |
Death Wish
03:17
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Your name is an echo
Of a feeling that I miss
Your voice I remember
As the touch of your kiss
The memories I still have of you
Are through rose-tinted glass
I will wait a whole eternity
For these feelings to pass
I wish I could’ve died
That one night you called me
And showed me those beautiful songs
And said they were written about me
If I had died then
I would’ve died so happy
I wish I could’ve died
That very same night
Your love to me once holy
Is now sin upon my heart
Just pain draining my energy
Slowly tearing me apart
The fondness I still feel for you
Are remains of times gone by
Yet I hold on to them dearly
‘Til the moment I shall die
I wish that I could have
Just one night to call you
And show you all of the songs
I have written about you
Just give me that and
I will die so happy
I will happily die
That very same night
I wish I could’ve died
That one night you called me
And showed me those beautiful songs
And said they were written about me
If I had died then
I would’ve died so happy
I wish I could’ve died
That very same night
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8. |
Salton Sea
02:58
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Creature devour me soon
You move like a dancer
And speak in a spellbinding tune
When I look down upon you
Head between my thighs
I dream of the sea and
The desert in your eyes
At dawn I am to find you in your room
Crawl under the covers and meet you inside
My lover greets me with soft spoken sweetness
And I wake them with eager kisses
I always dream of you
Painted in golden and blue
Soft skin on my fingertips
Blue porcelain on my lips
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
Chain smoked cigarette smell
Golden jewels would suit you so well
Moon shining bright on your being
Love to touch your ceramic skin
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
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9. |
June Bug
02:46
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Oh June bug
It’s warm outside
Come out and play
Under the sun
Oh June bug
Don’t you love it in the summer
Walking 'round in the forest
Sharing secret in the flowers
June bug
I miss the desert night sky
How it’s full of bright lights
Moonlight caressing the mountain side
Oh June bug
How I miss being by your side
So enchanted by your smile
Feeling so whole when I’ve got you around
My summers are all yours June bug
You're in all my favorite memories too
My fondest feelings are for you
June bug
How I think of you
Oh June bug
I can't wait for the summer
To have some fun
And spend my days with you
Oh June bug
California feels so far away
Summers with you are in my heart to stay
How I love you in the summer,
Miss you any other day
June bug
I miss the desert night sky
How it’s full of bright lights
Moonlight caressing the mountain side
Oh June bug
How I miss being by your side
So enchanted by your smile
Feeling so whole when I’ve got you around
My summers are all yours June bug
You're in all my favorite memories too
My fondest feelings are for you
June bug
How I think of you
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porkboii Redlands, California
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